Not sure what I am doing with this blog so I will just write down everything that will come to my mind, sorry for the mistakes and typo but I wont come back to fix it or I will just miss my point...
WHO AM I????
I AM SOMEONE WHO.... Was born in Brazil 29 years ago in a wonderful (but far from being perfect) family that had nurtured me in so many ways….sometimes even excessively!! I am my family, my mom, my dad, my sister, relatives, and all the people who had raised me! I was raised by 7 people living in the same house. Can you imagine how much of unsolved “problems” that were not actually mine did I have? Well, sometimes I am still surprised and astonished when I find myself discovering things inside of my mind, such as emotions, feelings, thoughts and so on, that are not actually mine!!!! How good is that?!! :/ When we are a child people just through things inside of our minds with no concern… “I´m sorry…but I´m here just sucking everything you feel, do, and say mom!!"Anyway, I don’t blame anyone for that; we cannot use these things as an excuse for who we have become and just for the matter we are able to change that emotion, feeling or behavior at any point in our lives!
I AM SOMEONE WHO.... just makes a meaningful change when the pain of remaining the same becomes greater than the pain of changing yourself!! Nido Qubein says that the only person in society who welcomes a change is a baby and wears diapers!! Isn´t that sad? Changing is a big issue in my life and has always been…I´m someone who keeps stuffing things inside of my mind and body like a turkey on Christmas day…until the pain of remaining the same…you know… becomes greater than the pain of changing myself!!!
I have done so many changes in my life in the last 5 years that I realized that the only person who does not change is the one who is already dead! Change is opportunity, it’s our opportunity to grow… and how good would be if we could change the respective word for “opportunity”…
I am someone who had the opportunity to live in 3 different countries since 2007, someone who had moved from home to home 12x during this period, including New Zealand, the first place I went to, where I spent the last 2 months of the same year pruning grapes on a farm, having just a tent as my shelter and my ex partner to torture; I am someone who had worked in a few different places like hotels, coffee shops, chocolaterias, real states, family homes, nursery homes and finally schools. I am someone who had the opportunity to meet incredible people along the way that played like angels in my life. What goes around comes around right? So something good I might have done during my path???!!
I AM SOMEONE WHO....have learned how to love people unconditionally…well…actually just one person so far, apart from my family, but anyway it’s a good start and I am working on that so…let’s say that I HAVE BEEN learning how to love people unconditionally and I have been accepting others for who they are. We cannot change another person… but it doesn’t mean we cannot love them for who they are…I mean, if you really love them…you have to set them free to be who they are.
I am the one learning that it doesn’t matter where you live or where you want to go…there’s one place in the world where you feel safe and that’s will be your home forever. “There” is no better than “here”, when your “there” has become a “here”…you will simply obtain another “there” that will, again, look better than “here”. And that´s so true!!
I AM SOMEONE WHO....has been learning how to forgive a few friends and relatives that have hurt me in the past. I am the one saying to myself that their approval isn’t need it anymore…I release them with love…and just love who I am. I have learned that my life is a mirror and the people in my life are really mirrors of me!
I AM SOMEONE WHO....had made a lot of mistakes but has learned from them… and I am also someone who had made a lot of mistakes and HAVENT learned from them!!! “So…a little bit more of pain here, please!!!”
I am also the one struggling with old behaviors, food addiction and etc as a way of resistance. And that´s fine… resistance it’s just impatient to learning. A lesson is repeated until it’s learned and will be presented to you in various forms until you have learned, then you can go to your next lesson. Learning lessons do not end...
But I am also the one who had learned how to set goals and achieve them. I am the one who has been learning how to receive what I am asking for.
I AM SOMEONE WHO....has been emotionally unavailable for the last 2 years because I haven’t learned how to forgive myself. The truth is there are no mistakes, only lessons…Growth is a process of trial and error, experimentation. But try to say that to my heart, not to my mind!! Nevertheless, I´m pretty sure that another great person will appear in my life and it will be wonderful to share my life with someone else again. I am not rushing at all.
I AM SOMEONE WHO.... has a passion for teaching and education and who does love to work…but that’s a subject for another blog in a near future… I am someone who received a greatest gift…the talent of working with children. They fulfill my life with LOVE everyday and allow me to use all my creativity when I am in class. I usually heard “I love you, Teacher” at least one time per week, “You are beautiful today” (even when you know you are not) is said almost every day…Not talking about all the hugs and kisses I receive along the day. I also heard a lot of crying and spotless requests but these things are not from my angels, these are the things they have been stuffed by their parents and media in general. I really enjoy working with children and teaching something they will never forget is priceless. I can really feel that I make a difference in their lives.
I AM SOMEONE WHO.... have been deeply studying NPL, life coaching, positive affirmations, and so on for the last 2 years. I am the one looking for God in the outside world…how silly am I? I am the one who wants to know Him because I can feel His presence. I am the one who has accepted Him and I know He is inside of every cell of my body.
To summarize, I am the one doing the best I can with the understanding, knowledge and awareness I have… how about you? WHO ARE YOU?? Feel free to post or comment…I would love to hear from you…
“What you make of your life is up to you, you have all the tools and resources you need, what you do with them is up to you.”
